last love letter

Dedicated to my once beloved Sam:

To the person I considered my soulmate.
When you came into my life, I told myself I would love you and never gonna hurt you.
You were my bestfriend, my love, my everything.
Til 1 day, you came and said, “I’m sick, I’m afraid, I can’t stay with you anymore.
I refuse to believe at first, but when I saw those tears feel down on your cheeks. It spell out that truth about how you really feel inside you…
You were deeply hurt, yah I know it was hurt too…

You can’t even look straight into my eyes, when you said “It was too late”.
My life has change at the very moment.
I just found myself on bended knees, yelling….”why”?
I was down, completely, but I had to be strong for you at your worst I was there.
Until the day has come for us to say goodbye, I knew it, but I can’t just accept it.
If only I knew that was the last time I should have hold you and never let go, the kiss, the whisper, and embrace…
It was the last… I can feel your arms falling down slowly… I know you’re gone.

We always thought our love was enough for us to last, It was a sad ending… it’s God’s will…
I know you’re happy now, wherever you are, and me… here I am hurting… broken.
Those 3 long years, it’s all gone now, how can I forget? How can I start over once again?

I’m sorry if you see my life falling apart. I know I can’t get you back, and I won’t be seeing you for the rest of my life.

It’s more than a month now, this has been the longest time of my life… the most painful time I ever had.

The sadness of the nights brings back the days we had, the time you let go of me, and the moment that I surrendered you… even silence reminds me of sorrows, the pain and my hopelessness.

Let me suffer in silence, til I get over you, slowly, I can let you go… and I will be me once again…
I will be keeping my promise, I will move on, but you will always be, a part of me…
Hear me say this, one last time… I have found the essence of my life “, I have discovered a world that’s beautiful, because of you”.

My love, my misery…
I’m letting go of you now…

Its time to set myself free
This is the hardest thing I will do, coz I still love you… and this love…

This is all I have… empty heart!